24 5 / 2012
Let me go.
I don’t hate anyone of you.
I just hate myself, for getting affected.
I rather not have anything, than be like this. Stuck between the happiness of myself and my family.
Can you all just let me go. It actually makes me feel better.
23 5 / 2012
Feeling sian now.
Don’t feel like going out tonight actually for the stupid celebration which I really have no mood for.
I don’t frigging care for the graduation.
21 5 / 2012
I doubt I can never stop worrying for my family. Worse still, I feel I am being left alone now on the house dealing w all of these as my father seems to be along quite fast lately - meno pause.
20 5 / 2012
I guess so, let me live with this quote for the rest of the week..
I always thought missing someone whom you used to love or like is a beautiful thing, just like what we third party always see in a fairy tale… But when it comes to real life, it’s not that simple.
Much more complicated things are involved.. The possibility of regrets, the fear of the future, the wound inflicted on the new party, etc etc…comparisons…
one night, and sometimes, it just all came crashing in.
Is this missing?
Is this just a moment of trying to be sentimental?
Maybe.
Nevertheless, at the end of the day, I have a family to care for, a family to think for, a family to live for. So no use thinking about all these.
What is happiness? Honestly, the definition of it has become so blurry that I myself no longer can determine what is my happiness but to bring in my family members. Maybe I am afraid of the responsibility but whatever it is, it’s all in the past.
I miss us.
I miss the smart you and the dumb me.
I miss the dumb you and the smart me.
I miss the sentimental you.
I miss the child-like you.
I miss the adult-like you.
On top of it all,
Much more than all these missing, I hope you are happy and in search for your new happiness - because i guess like what they say, something better will come along the way. always.
(Source: iammetafor)
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18 5 / 2012
Empty.
You can take whatever you want off me. As long as it makes you happy. Because sometimes I think that’s the purpose of my existence.
so I am fine with it.
(Source: cojinhasantos, via superbirdd)
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